restless

I want to get away already! 10 days seems like a million light years away.
thats when i'll finally get a break.
 a trip to NYC will do me real good right now.
a few nights of beautiful sleep.
and tremendous amounts of sex! =]


today i went to the dmv. nigga told me i need insurance before i can get my LICENSE.
my question him was HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSE TO GET CAR INSURANCE WITHOUT A CAR?!
his response, its a law in north carolina for all drivers to at least have liability due to the fact that
I'll most likely be driving somebodys car.
smh.
whatever. the shits dirt cheap, so its not that serious but still.
wtf.
had an interview at aveda, to which i was late for due to these assholes functioning in CP time.
smh. sometimes I loathe being black.
-sigh-
its 4am. and i have a massive headache.
ive taken 4 advils and a vitamin C pill. shits pounding so loud i cant hear myself think.
smh can i get a fucking break?!
I barely sleep in this house.
and when i do, im jolted awake by this old hag asking me some dumb ass question about
some shit i could really care less about.
GET ME THE FUCK OUT!!!!!!.
ugh.
I appreciate the help but I feel like im losing myself in this house.
i was put here to get my shit together, which given, is being done
but ugggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
can i live!?
leave me alone for a day or six.
smh.

anyway, the plan is to be here till march.
i hope that shit doesnt get pushed back due to something controllable
, or i'll literally just shoot myself in the foot.