human nature?

“I start to feel like I can’t maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through.

 And I wish I knew what was wrong.

 Maybe something about how stupid my whole life is.

I don’t know.

Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on?... I don’t know the answer, I know only that I can’t.

I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try,

 try again stuff. I just want out. I’ve had it. I am so tired.

 I am twenty and I am already exhausted.”