abuse yu who are not.

Its like I let the wrong people in,
& when the right people came along , i froze.
& in that i find that i do everything in my power to ruin shit.
unconsciously of course, because i dont notice prior to it being too late.
or maybe its just that Im in denial up until i cant take the pressure anymore?
im not absolutely sure, as you can tell: i just know im FUCKED til the sun comes up.
& again i must repeat;
i am not lost in translation
Jut caught up in some bullshit.
Self inflicted of course.